With time, the masks worn by a broken man get more and more etched into his present and has a tendency of fast transforming into his future while becoming an integral part of his destiny. Desires and dreams are ironically the same two sides to the coin of life and are inter-woven into each other’s existence. The more you desire the more you dream and the more you dream, the more you desire. Many fortunate souls get what they desire the most and have nearly all their dreams fulfilled. However, in this so-called ‘balanced life’, there exists a handful of those for whom desires and dreams take the form of heart shattering disappointments and unbearable nightmares. Once a man had a dream, a deep-seated desire to ‘Love’ and to be ‘Loved’. However, in the due course of events, life played its cruel hand and in mere moments his desires vaporized and his most cherished dreams were set ablaze in the fires of ‘betrayal’. Everything he believed in, held so close to his heart, took the form of a dagger that eventually will become his ultimate tool for destruction. His confidante, his biggest ally reared its ugly head of deception and lies, while masking his monstrous deeds with his compassion and empathy. The man one day, soaked in wine and tears of blood, looked to the skies and with the wailing cry of a wounded animal asked the heavens for respite. But, the forces residing in this mythical realm of ‘Heaven’ looked down upon the soul and gave a smile that was dotted with mischief, a smile without ‘Mercy’, ‘Sympathy’ or ‘Empathy’.
God created us all, gave us sentience, will and thinking abilities. However, what He missed out on was, to provide us with the ability to toggle between our emotions and feelings. Humans, perhaps one of the most advanced races in the entire universe has been able to accomplish so many things since its creation. We managed to harness the power of fire, construct kingdoms, wage wars and create metropolis of the 21st century. But, if there is one thing that us, the Homo sapiens, have yet to achieve is the ability to switch on or off our emotions as per our will.
Maybe, tomorrow I won’t have any recollection of this journal that I am about to post or if u ask me some day what I really wished to convey with this post, I might be left in a fix as to explain how and why I wrote this. Still, I do know that, a heart agonized in the fires of loneliness, pined to become one with the person it loves the most has only one outlet to vent its anguished emotions out, and that is through words. Not verbal, but on paper. It is my request that this post should not be taken as a means of garnering attention, but as a realization from the point of view of a mere mortal, who just wishes to reach to the underlying humanity of his readers. How does one really sustain an emotional massacre? The answer is, most of the people and I emphasize on “most” aren’t able to cope with the after effects of emotions gone awry. You see, our lives and our world is based on an intricate web of practicalities and severe emotional responses. Being practical has become the way of life and somehow in the due course, feelings, especially ‘Love’ has taken a back seat, where its importance and its sheer value has been lost. However, there are some individuals who tend to realize the essence of Love and understand its significance in one’s life.